I took a little hiatus from blogging because….well, to be honest I was feeling insecure and doubting myself.
My thoughts were along these lines:
[I feel like] EVERYONE blogs, so why would anyone want to hear from me? I’m not great at _____[insert whatever my friends’ blogs happen to be about]. I don’t have anything new or unique to say. No one really cares about what’s going on in my life. I’m not creative/smart/interesting/funny enough to write a blog.
There’s a little nugget of truth in each of these statements….but here’s the thing – anytime there’s a partial truth, there is really a lie. Psalm 51:6 says, “Surely you desire truth in the inner parts; you teach me wisdom in the inmost place.” So I asked myself, “What is God’s truth that He wants me to hear? What is wisdom in the face of this lie?” The truth is that I don’t have to measure myself by other people, their blogs, or what they might think of me and what I have to say. I enjoy blogging. I like putting my thoughts to
paper web page. And I like sharing my thoughts with others. Whether they get anything out of it or like what I have to say is up to them, not me. Plus, as my friend Melissa said, it’s a legacy I can leave behind for my kiddos.
So I’m back to blogging, and I will continue until I feel like it isn’t something beneficial for me anymore.
And I’m choosing to listen to the Voice of Truth. Because His voice will not only speak Truth to me, it will also speak Love. Beautiful, pure, adoring, unbounded LOVE. And that is something we all need to hear more of.
Speaking of love…I am so in love with this little that I gave birth to [more on that in a future post] exactly two months ago today. She is beautiful and happy and strong and sometimes a bit demanding. Already we can see that she is a very social little girl. Most of the time if she’s upset, it’s just because she wants someone to come talk to her and give her attention. [Especially if that someone who comes over to her is her big sister. Precious!!]
Here she is…